![]() He meant what he said to Mike Carrera as he climbed into the Twinkie, disbelief and fury warring inside of him when he learned that they actually sent her away. He knows that she’s gotta have some complicated ass feelings about the whole thing too and that being home in Kildare is definitely going to stir them up. Not really, beyond the barest of details that she could manage to get out while they killed time on the plane, but what he does know is that he will never forgive them for sending her away. They haven’t had a chance to talk about it. Plus, he has a pretty good idea about what’s bothering her anyways. She’s never been the type of person to hold her feelings inside. But he reminds himself that he knows Kie, knows her maybe better than anyone, and he knows that she’ll talk to him when she’s ready. If she’s not going to talk to him, this isn’t a good sign. Fine.” Her lips curve up but it’s not a real smile, and a ball of anxiety starts building in his gut. She nods, but the furrow between her brows remains. “Hey,” he says quietly and she blinks, glancing over at him. Kie’s fingers tighten around his hand as they make their way away from the plane and when he glances down at her she’s chewing her lip, the way she always does when she’s nervous. He’s got no parents to welcome him home, just like last time, although he’s not the only one in that depressing as hell club now. Reminds him that here, they aren’t all equal. Still, being back on Kildare soil sets something inside of him on edge. It’s a fuckin’ miracle, but JJ’s never been more thankful for anything in his life. They’ve been through hell and back, but somehow they’ve all come out the other side – together. Pope and Cleo crowd in on their other side, and then it’s the six of them together, the Pogues, their little family. JJ’s an expert on being alone, and he knows that John B’s not meant to be alone.īut then Sarah’s there beside him, her arm wound through his, her head resting on his shoulder, and that heaviness seems to shrink. JJ saw Big John as a father figure – more so than his own father anyways – but Big John had dragged them into this race for yet another treasure, so hellbent on getting the gold at the end of the rainbow that he couldn’t see what he was doing to his son.Īnd now he’s gone forever, leaving John B alone for good. ![]() There’s a heaviness to his best friend that JJ’s never seen before. John B’s always been the sunshine to JJ’s stormcloud, but he hasn’t smiled since they buried his father – for good this time – and JJ’s not sure what he’s supposed to do. They’re all exhausted, filthy and bedraggled, and he looks around at each of them solemnly. ![]() Whatever happens, they’re gonna handle it together. There’s so many deep seated issues and ideas and thoughts buried in his psyche that a simple I love you – no matter how very not simple it felt at the time – isn’t going to magically solve all those other things.īut when he glances over at Kie as they step off the plane together, feels her fingers laced tightly with his, her comforting smile as though she knows exactly where his mind has gone, well. He doesn’t want to let that happen again, but a part of him deep down knows that he can't control it. ![]() The awareness of how different they were, their families, their lives, everything. And the last time they came back, those differences in their lives pushed them apart. So while he doesn't doubt that they love each other, he does worry, because being back home brings up a whole other host of issues. Except for the hours they spent in the back of the plane, but there hadn’t been much talking happening then, both of them lost in the haze of newfound romance. Because they love each other, but they’ve been in a race for their lives ever since they said the actual words and so there hasn’t been a moment just to… be. The gentle brush of her fingers against his, a challenging smirk sent his way.īut coming back to Kildare feels… off. He can feel it in the way she looks at him, how she knows him better than he knows himself. He’s known that he loved her for a long time now, and it took him a while to accept that she loved him, to actually believe that this amazingly beautiful, funny, smart, brave, loyal girl actually loved him, but he knows that she does. Because sure, he and Kie had said they loved each other – and he doesn’t doubt that. As the plane touches down in the OBX, bringing them home from South America, JJ doesn’t know what exactly to expect. ![]()
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